Date With A Birth Mom...

It's been a little over two years since we last saw Ayson's birth mom and her family.  He was only 15 months at that time.  We love his birth mom and her family.  They're a wonderful, thoughtful and giving family and we've always enjoyed our meetings with them.  His birth mom requested we have another get together, so we've decided on meeting again this weekend.  At our house.  Gulp.  This is another defining moment in our relationship with them as they finally see where we live.  No more veil.  It's an odd feeling but at the same time, it feels all right. A trust has developed between us and her (and her family) that tells us this "vulnerability" is a good and natural progression in our relationship.

Of course having them at our house means they will see Alex and Ayson, most likely, uncensored.  You never know what might be said or what might happen.  There could be talk, or even demonstrations, of bodily functions (my efforts to quell this behavior thus far have been futile).  Lots of showing off.  Hopefully no fighting or activity that requires discipline.  Heaven help us!

Then of course there is the visual aspect of things. What they will see when they walk up to our door and in to our house.  Things like: I wish it was in the spring when the yard and flower beds looked pretty, I wish we had finished putting up the trim in the living room (something, if I can be honest, should have actually happened several years ago!), I wish I had the carpets cleaned like I had wanted to but put off, I wish I had more time to at the very least paint the trim in the kitchen, I wish we had repaired a small window on our back door that Ayson broke with the golf club.  I wish we had...Ugh.  With only days before the weekend arrives, all I can do is blitz the house!  If it can be clean, I think I can enjoy our time together a little more.

Regardless of any concerns I have, the one thing I can say is we are really excited to show off our Ayson.  His bright smile and beautiful blueberry eyes exude confidence and delight in the world around him.  Our dear friends will see a wonderfully bubbly, exuberant and intelligent little guy who is dearly loved by his family! He is one of two little lights in our lives! :)